Sunday, January 27, 2013

The Return

H is back!

Sure he was seven hours late and technically didn't get home until Friday morning but whatever!  There were flight delays and transport delays and then his car battery was dead and the tow truck dropped him off after taking the car to the shop.

We're never doing the separation thing again.  I don't care if we can pay off a car loan now and still put a little money in an investment fund.  It's not worth it at all.  I know there are a lot of people who do this on a regular basis but I simply can't. 

All the tension and stress and my barely holding it together feelings melted away in the first 24 hours.  I feel so relaxed. Sophie acts like H never left.  I was afraid she wouldn't remember him and might cry when he tried to hold her.  The opposite is true.  Daddy is the fun interesting superstar around the house.  I can tell that Sophie is much happier.  No more crying when I have to take out the dog or the trash and she has two people to play with her instead of just one. 

I'm looking forward.  There are so many things to do now that H is back.  I get to be the Mom I want to be instead of the mom I have to be.   No more phoning it in during bath time or play time or bed time. 

It's time to download some new music and charge my iPod.  Exercise is first on my bucket list.  I haven't had a proper work out in four months.   The weather should warm up in the next couple of days making the sidewalks safe for a run.  I'm also going to start going to the gym in Eutin.  I've lost almost all the weight I gained during pregnancy, I only have about five pounds left.  I'm not sure if I can run three miles like I used to.  Being able to go on a long run again would be great.

Next up is going out for a night without Sophie.  I've already made dinner plans with a friend.  I'm looking forward to sipping wine in a restaurant that doesn't have highchairs and catching up on some much needed girl talk that has nothing to do with babies. 

The last things are big decisions.  I was waiting for H to return so we could decides things together.  We're planning two trips, one next week and one over the Summer.  I'm getting a new laptop.  I'm still using the HP I bought when I was going to university and it has a lot of issues with the display drivers and keys that stick.  It's been through wine spills and baby puke and I'm overdue for something more modern.  We also need to get a different coffee table.  Glass coffee tables are like white couches, they're great until you have kids. 

The next three weeks I will drift blissfully through a cloud of peaceful happiness, no cares in the world.  My husband is back, the most trialing period of my life so far is over.  We're all where we should be with good things to come.

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